Author: Rachel Flory

Seeing Myself in Wonderland: Mental Health in American McGee’s Alice – Part Two

This is the second part of a two-part piece. In case you haven’t already, be sure to click here and read part one first in order to acquaint yourself with how my history interweaves with that of Goth Alice in Depression Wonderland. Otherwise, you’ll probably be really confused. The next big battle is with the Jabberwock, and it was another battle I found myself personally invested in. The Jabberwock represents Alice’s survival guilt and insults her—“You selfish, misbegotten, and unnatural child!” being one of my favorite video game lines, ever. I could relate to this so much, since every day...

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Seeing Myself in Wonderland: Mental Health in American McGee’s Alice

I have to admit, I’m a little embarrassed when I, a grown woman at the ripe age of 25, tell people that one of my favorite games is American McGee’s Alice. It definitely has connotations of early 2000s mall-goth culture. You know, kids who had Vampire Freaks accounts, worshiped The Nightmare Before Christmas, and wore t-shirts that said, “Normal people scare me.” Content Warning: This essay contains descriptions of suicidal ideation and self-harm. When I mentioned Alice to my roommate, he said, “Yeah, I’ve seen that game before. It looks, uh, edgy.” I’ll admit, the game hasn’t aged well...

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